listen to the wind come howl...

The weeks passed by and there was nothing I could say in this blog for that period of the time..but doesn't mean there was nothing happened to my hectic, stressful(not as stress as it made me out to be) life, and now here I'd like to mmmm(don't know the right word) but I'd like to call it "spit it out!"...
Firstly, I'm not good at making story or make it sounds beautiful or interesting...but here the things...
It was my hard week when everything happened at the same time, dealing with my already exhausted routine work as a student, facing with various type of people who sometimes make you want to shout out at and put your fist down their faces and then break their neck bones into small pieces(only if I couldn't restrained myself), struggling to read my pediatric books because every time I tried to read, my eyes gradually, silently going to shut and ended up having a long deep sleep(that's my bad, sleepyhead kinda person, some friends call me 'sleeping ugly'), and the hardest part for that week is that to deal with my past, that's making me mentally exhausted, I was just thinking about that, I tried to find the answer, I tried to feel and understand other peoples' feelings. How would they feel when thing's going like this, not like that, and what if it turns like that not like this, what if, what if....and so on. But why do I care about other's feeling? on the other hand that people never care about how I feel...They just say what they want to say, they just do as they wish to do, saying lies, and etc..
My past really kills me, on the other hand it taught me to be strong, I know, everything happens for a reason;

"Dan Kami tidak menciptakan langit dan bumi dan apa yang ada antara keduanya
dengan bermain-main. Kami tidak menciptakan melainkan dengan haq, tetapi kebanyakan mereka tidak mengetahui" - Ay. 38-39 Ad Dukhaan-

I started to clear my head by bringing it to ultimately the purpose of this life, this deluded life...
I know it's hard but...if Allah brings me to it, then He will bring me through it..dan saya pasrah dan redha atas yang terjadi...
"Did ye then think that We had created you in jest, and ye would not be brought back to Us
(for account)?" - Ay. 115 Al-Mu'minun-